Sharing: and then wanting to take it back

Not to long ago I spent two weeks inside the house. I went out for dog walks only, but cancelled all other plans I had previously made. TWO WEEKS indoors…It was my Mental Health Mondays taken to the extreme.

For the life of me I couldn’t figure out why I felt this way. I blamed most of it on the weather as it was cold, snowy, rainy, freezing rain…you name it, we had it. Then some of the blame went to my creative process, as when I get involved in something, it is all or nothing and I was on a creative streak with my photography. It wasn’t until a close friend said that I was possibly hibernating more than usual as I was putting myself ‘out there’ personally on this blog.

Mind blown.

All of a sudden it made perfect sense. As an Introvert I wasn’t used to telling the world about myself. I was the one who listened, not talked. I was the one who lived behind closed doors, not out in the open.

This post has been sitting in my drafts for well over a month now. But I feel like this is worth sharing because there may be just one person out there who feels the same and will be happy to have someone that can relate.

Behind closed doors

You are probably wondering why I am “putting it all out there” now.

I started putting my thoughts on this blog for a few reasons:

  • Never in my life have I kept a journal or diary and this blogging thing appealed to me
  • It has taken me years to be in a comfortable place in my life and feel that now I can share my experiences
  • I want to educate and show people what it is like to be a DeafBlind person in today’s world
  • This is a creative outlet for me

But there is a downside to sharing the more personal things, and for me that downside is it makes me feel the need to “hide” more. I am sure it is a process and will get easier over time.

Also I don’t have to share everything, just what I want.

One response to “Sharing: and then wanting to take it back”

  1. Thank you for sharing this post. I can 100% relate. I am also an introvert, who loves people. I am chronically ill, and have the need to rest often. I recently did a video with another blogger. Sho often does YouTube and I was her guest. I had a blast but realized that I won’t do it again. I had to be ON the whole time and it was exhausting. I love blogging for the connections with other people who are navigating blindness, and I’ve met amazing people — like you! But I do feel the need to hibernate, often. Hugs.


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